Am I Happy? 4/4/2010

So hello,

Lately, I've been receiving some messages in my youtube account (if you want to subscribe or wtvr write "Tloast" on the searching box and you'll see a video i made there) and some people who read my blog sent me messages saying " Wow, I know how you feel... Sometimes life isn't fair... You shouldn't commit suicide... You will find happiness..." Blah blah blah.

First of all I want to get one thing straight. I might have my downs in life but I am not suicidal!

Second of all I am a very happy person even though throught the blogs I make it doesn't seem that way. I use my blog as a sort of... How you'd say... Hum, a sort of therapy or wtvr. I write here when I feel down. It makes me feel less sufacated with problems. But I am definitely not unhappy.

I am sooo glad i have the friends I have. I am grateful that I am in a school with no bullying and there is no such things like stereotypes. I am happy that my parents care enough to even use "The bam tactic" (you'll have to read my parents blog to understand that one :P) because well they do care. I just write here out of anger or things I think should be said ya know?

It doesn't mean I am unhappy...
That's all for today soo
Peace@ =)

Justin Bieber? 1/04/2010

Hi guys,

So are you a Justin Bieber fan? Why or why not?
I must say I am not Justin Bieber fan. I guess in the begining i didn't know exactly why I didn't like him, but there was something about him that I didn't like... I've been thinking and this is my answer to the second question.

I don't like Justin Bieber because I'm jealous of him. Yes, I've said it. Call it stupid or whatever, I don't care. I mean it isn't the fact that people say he's a fag that I hate him, it isn't the fact that he sounds like a girl, I mean didn't people use to say that Michael Jackson sounded like a girl? He got big anyway. It's definitely not the fact that he is canadian or whatever. I don't like him because I am jealous of him. What kind of jealousy am I talking about?

Come on, I bet that if you don't like him you know exactly what I'm talking about. The fact that his friend or something knew Usher and all that jazz. I bet you wish it was you. I definitely wish it was me. Then again who wouldn't like making money by singing?


You know what. It's not that I don't like him, I'm just jealous. Sure, I mean, he deserves what he has. I mean he worked for it, right? So I guess I am a fan, but a jealous fan.

Anyway i decided to talk about this, because in my school everyone is like "What you think about Justin Bieber" and some would say " OMG i freaking love him, he's soooo cute OMG OMG OMG" others " I don't lik his music but I'd tap him, if you know what i mean..." while others would just be like " He is a total fag, he sounds like a girl, annoying little brat, midget..."

So that's it for today
'till next time
Peace@

Backup friend? 26/03/2010

Well hello there :),

Today I guess I'm in a good mood, and I remembered that it's been a while since I last wrote on my blog. So I was thinking and I also remembered that this week one of my classmates confessed to me that she felt that her so called bff was leaving her behind. Ohhh, i know what these situations are about. It's probably the worst feeling you can have. If you don't know what I'm talking about I'm talking about feeling like a backup friend.

"What the sh*t is a backup friend?" that's what you're probably thinking about. It's actually quite simple.

A backup friend is a friend who you hang out with when there is no one else for you to hang out with. For example: You're at the mall with your best friend and another friend. Somehow your best friend ignores you because your other friend is there. It's like you're not even there. Later your other friend leaves and since there's only you and you're best friend, you're best friend will turn to you to pass the time. If this has ever happened to you, I'm sorry to say but you're a back up friend.

Now if you're having problems like these, here's what you should do:
You should tell your friend how you feel, and that you don't like being treated as a backup friend then if you get into a fight, she wasn't a good friend anyway :/ cause if she was, she'd understand

IMPORTANT NOTE:
We must not confuse this! Some people, seem like they give more attention to others when you guys are in groups, because maybe they haven't seen each other for a while and they're trying to still keep their relationship "tight" but they have no intention to treat you as a backup friend.

And yeah, That's all i gotta say for today :)
Hope i helped with anything or wtvs xD
'Till next time

@Peace

Parents 28/02/2010

Hi,

it's me again, this time, I'm going to be talking about something that we all have to face. Our parents. What don't you like about your parents? Me? Everything, every single bullshit of theirs I hate it! " Oh we're only doing this cause we care" that's what your parents probably tell you! My parents only know one tactic to teach you discipline, i like to call it " The " bam" tactic". Why is it called that here's why:

- Where have you been?

- I was out with my friends...

- You said you would be back by 6.

- It's 6:30 the bus came late.

*slaps me (a.k.a. " the bam tactic")

If you're reading this you are my witness i swear that when i grow up, and have my money or whatever i am going to live as faaaaaaaaaaaaar as i can from my parents! I will not bother to call them, if they call me I will ignore their calls and most of all I WILL BE NOTHING LIKE THEM!

It's like they never were kids! It's like they were always perfect! My friends always tell me " omg your dad is soooo cool, way cooler than mine!" that's because my dad can't slap you, my dad can't beat the shit out of you, my dad can't prohibit you to hang out with your friends, my dad can't do anything to you! But to me, i'm like his punching bag!, shit happens to him, who takes the fault? Of course his beloved daughter me... Of course my mom is like his little bitch agrees with on everything and everything, all she has to do left is jump of a building for him, yeah. And they have this fucking stupid reputation that in front of other people we're a happy family. Oh if i didn't depend on them i would of already ran away... maybe even change my name! i don't know i don't care! When i get my career my money GOOD BYE MOM AND DAD I'M NEVER TALKING TO YOU AGAIN but i'll call, to check on my little brother whom i feel sorry for cause he doesn't know what he's going to have to face...

That's all for 2day

Peace out@

Obsession 21/02/2010

Hi,

I guess that's what you say when you greet someone and if your new to my lil blog I'll have to ask you to not judge me, cause I'm only human after all ...

Anyway I decided to make this blog, because i have a diary but some people just don't respect privacy or anything at all. Before I forget, I wasn't born in 1922, nahh i just wrote that cause i didn't want to give out my real age but wtvr I'm 13 actually.

If your from my generation here's something I'd like to ask, do you get mad when you see really hot celebrities and then you fantasize these things that you know are never coming true and still in your head it is? It's like forcing ourselves to block this reality and still we are aware that there's a reality that's not in our favor. And then there's the obsession, you figure out how old he is, when was he born, how was is life, which is fav color, in other words we become complete STALKERS. If the celebrity you're obsessing over was single when you first started obsessing and all of the sudden he has girlfriend, you surely call the gf a bitch. All right let's admit you do, but when someone asks you give out these lame excuses like "no I'm happy for him, after all he's happy" or " i'd never stand a chance i mean she's prettier" when right deep down in our guts you're really are saying " ERGG that stupid b*tch, why does she even exist, she's uglier than my ass look at that huge zit on her forehead, she only looks good cause of all the surgeries ". I'll admit I went all star struck once or twice, but really it's not worth it this compulsive obsession can end a friendship if you're not paying attention. How? Example:

- Two bff's just finished watching twilight , one of them is on team jacob other team edward, therefore an obsession begins. One of then is obsessed with Taylor Lautner the other with Robert Pattinson, and then you're like werewolves and vampires, total opposites "unattracts". Start fights blah blah blah...

Was my point made? I'm saying this cause 2 friends of mine are going through this situation.It's not worth fighting with your best friends over fictional characters, I mean while you two are fighting Taylor Lautner and Robert Pattinson are friends. Remenber that.

It's enough for 2day I'll be back tomorrow.

Peace Out @